Welcome
I have found that I like to keep track of what I am looking at, listening to, reading, eating, thinking about, and generally absorbing. Not because everything I encounter is important, but because I think the accumulation of these small things eventually becomes a record of who I am in this moment, what I am thinking about, and how it ultimately affects what I do and what I become.
This is kinda like a personal archive of my daily consumption and the things that stick with me. Whatever inspires me, teaches me something, makes me feel something, gives me an idea, or just catches my attention. I am interested in how these unrelated things begin to exist alongside one another, and in remembering what I was doing and consuming at this point in my life when I look back on it in the future.
Here I am sharing the things that shape ME!
I may also post essays/writings along with daily documentation.
EDIT: As of August 2026, I think I am switching over to Substack for all text-based work and thoughts…
Today I saw a smushed rat, then a decapitated bird
It’s not going to be a good day
I want to avoid it on my walk back home, but it’s too cold out
My friends have asked me if I am superstitous and sometimes I don’t know the difference between superstition and OCD. For example, if my coffee in the morning is bad, I assume it is going to be a bad day, and it usually is. Yes, I am aware I am psyching myself out and setting myself up for failure.
Sometimes something happens that makes me feel a feeling I have felt only a couple of specific times before, and brings me back to that moment
Teleportation
The thing that triggers this could be an incident, it could be a certain smell, a sound, a vision. But it teleports you forcefully into whatever hazy memory you have left from those previous moments
Your brain is always trying to chase your heart. Follow your heart, your brain will catch up
If you follow your brain, your heart won’t survive!!!!!!!!!!
Why do I sometimes feel nostalgic for how I used to feel during a certain time, even though it felt so horrible? But I miss having access to that feeling. I miss those days still even though I was miserable?