Today I saw a smushed rat, then a decapitated bird

It’s not going to be a good day

I want to avoid it on my walk back home, but it’s too cold out

My friends have asked me if I am superstitous and sometimes I don’t know the difference between superstition and OCD. For example, if my coffee in the morning is bad, I assume it is going to be a bad day, and it usually is. Yes, I am aware I am psyching myself out and setting myself up for failure.

Sometimes something happens that makes me feel a feeling I have felt only a couple of specific times before, and brings me back to that moment

Teleportation

The thing that triggers this could be an incident, it could be a certain smell, a sound, a vision. But it teleports you forcefully into whatever hazy memory you have left from those previous moments

Your brain is always trying to chase your heart. Follow your heart, your brain will catch up 

If you follow your brain, your heart won’t survive!!!!!!!!!!

Why do I sometimes feel nostalgic for how I used to feel during a certain time, even though it felt so horrible? But I miss having access to that feeling. I miss those days still even though I was miserable?