March 12, 2026
Eyes:
“Meditations in an Emergency”, Cameron Awkward-Rich
I wake up & it breaks my heart. I draw the blinds
& the thrill of rain breaks my heart. I go outside.
I ride the train, walk among the buildings, men in
Monday suits. The flight of doves, the city of tents beneath the underpass, the huddled mass, old
women hawking roses, & children all of them,
break my heart. There's a dream I have in which I
love the world. I run from end to end like fingers
through her hair. There are no borders, only wind.
Like you, I was born. Like you, I was raised in the institution of dreaming. Hand on my heart. Hand
on my stupid heart.
From The Year of Magical Thinking, Joan Didion:
“Read, learn, work it up, go to the literature. Information is control.”
Some brutally relatable quotes from The Novelist, by Jordan Castro:
“My morning so far felt beyond my control, like it was happening to me, not because of me”
“I felt entirely uninterested in reading or thinking about anything; I felt preemptively exhausted at the prospect of being thrust into having to think about something”
“Without an active disposition toward life, or a unifying life-task, I was absolved of my responsibility to step forward, into my own life, and could languish in front of my laptop, thinking, eschewing all else for the sake of my “novel,” pretending that I was engaged in something important and unique, when in reality I was engaged in common cowardice”
“everything a lukewarm soup of fragmented, poetic moods”
Ears:
“Claw Machine”, Sloppy Jane, Phoebe Bridgers
“I Don’t Wanna Be Too Cool”, Kate Fagan
“DEATHCAMP feat. Cole Alexander”, Tyler, The Creator
“Kill Everything”, fakemink
“Goodness Pt. 1”, The Hotelier
“Wake Me up to Drive”, Big Thief
March 2, 2026
Sick day
Mouth:
Granada and lemon refresher from Q’bo Latin Cafe
Sudafed
Zinc tablets
Eyes: (I have also decided to start sharing some really great and interesting quotes that I find influential when I feel like it)
“Blindness and Deafness as Metaphors: An Anthological Essay”, Joseph Grigley
This essay is a collection of quotations from contemporary texts in which the words “blindness” and “deafness” are used as metaphors and arranged into a narrative that functions both as an anthology and a critique. It explores how cultural values are embedded in everyday metaphors, while also examining how this type of language, commonly circulating through publications such as The New York Times, reveals broader attitudes toward disability in Western society and the ease with which these metaphors are used and normalized.
“I think that one of the saddest aspects of our time is the total destruction in people's awareness of all that goes with a conscious sense of the beautiful. Modern mass culture, aimed at the 'consumer', the civilisation of prosthetics, is crippling people's souls, setting up barriers between man and the crucial questions of his existence, his consciousness of himself as a spiritual being. But the artist cannot be deaf to the call of truth; it alone defines his creative will and organizes it, thus enabling him to pass on his faith to others. An artist who has no faith is like a painter who was born blind.” Andrey Turkovsky
“By getting people to accept the nature we find around us - the everyday ant, the familiar butterfly - as the same 'nature' we are told we should protect and revere, we can turn appreciation into action.” Adelle Caracanos, The New York Times
“'Becoming depressed is like going blind, the darkness at first gradual, then encompassing: it is like going deaf, hearing less and less until a terrible silence is all around you.'“ The Noonday Demon: An Atlas of Depression, Andrew Solomon, 2001
“Whites sometimes ask why we continue find it necessary to invoke the past. They do not want to be blamed for the sins of their fathers, and they exhort us to move on. But this is a story that has not ended. Cultural exclusion continues today - and in some ways it is getting worse. Our entire society is paying a price for this cultural blindness.” Peggy Cooper Cafritz
“All of a sudden we may find ourself wondering what it is that links us to a particular set of objects, or an environment, or a project, and, in response, altering the way we used to look at all the others.” Nicolas Bourriaud
“Working Through Objects”, Susan Hiller
Essay on collections and archives, both personal acting and what gives them value, what gives them meaning at all. Argues that objects carry personal and collective memories, acting as tools to process unconscious thoughts and experiences. So, engaging with them by collecting, arranging, and reflecting becomes a way to explore identity, memory, and emotion.
“The only value these things have is that I have assigned some kind of value to them.”
“I am trying to seek immortality and meaning through objects.”
“So by putting the remnants that I collect into these boxes, I'm using the box as a frame to draw attention to something placed within it.”
“Of course I didn’t know what the resonance was. I just knew that I was somehow stuck with these things and I never wanted to throw them out. So, I started to look into what the resonance of each thing might be for me, and then each got its place in a box and eventually I added appropriate contextualizing material, a title, an annotation and date like a real collector would, and that is my collection”
“Survival: Ruminations on Archival Lacunae”, Renee Green
This essay examines the silences in archives, what is missing, overlooked, or excluded, and how these shape our broader understanding of history and culture. She speaks about how archival silences reveal power dynamics and the fragility of memory.
“The compulsive activities demonstrate the lack of definitiveness…. yet allude to the fascinating possibilities for further searching which following these ordering systems can generate.”
Ears:
“Plea from a Cat Named Virtue”, The Weakerthans
“Right Ahead, You Sailor!”, Right Away, Great Captain!
“doing all the things i used to do with people, part 2 (acoustic/ rooftop version)”, teen suicide
“Orange County (feat. Bizarrap, Kara Jackson, and Anoushka Shankar)”, Gorillaz (NEW ALBUM!)
“I Know The End”, Phoebe Bridgers
“Banshee Beat”, Animal Collective
Feb 22, 2026
Eyes:
Funny Weather, Olivia Laing
The Heuretics of Deconstruction, Gregory L. Ulmer
^“I've never been sure about the need for literary criticism. If a work is immediate enough, alive enough, the proper response isn't to be academic, to write about it, but to use it, to go on. By using each other's texts, we keep· on living, imagining, making, fucking, and we fight this society of death.” Kathy Acker
Mouth:
A homemade, perfectly proportioned iced caramel latte (photo attached)…. Update TWO lattes
